Editor’s Note: In October of 2017, Naira died of lung cancer at the age of 29. When her family approached us earlier this year about the possibility of publishing some of her work posthumously, we were moved by the uncomplicated authority of her voice. The following essay confronts the topics of identity, culture, and ownership…
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Ascending Notes
August 9 – 8:52 a.m.We are here.Some retching as always from the shift, some panic and disorientation even in the seasoned men. One never truly grows accustomed to this place, its hugeness and loudness. Even its silence hisses, even its darkness throbs. The very air is an avalanche upon us, and though it is my…
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Editor’s Note
Dear lovely reader,
It’s been a weird couple of years. From politics to Hollywood scandals, it seems like unrest is everywhere. People are angry, they’re disenchanted, and they’re taking matters into their own hands. In a world on the offensive, we can’t help but put on our armor and prepare ourselves for the next battle.
I’d love to say that we’re immune from that unrest here in the F(r)iction office. But we’re not. For years, we’ve been rebelling against the established way of putting out a literary journal. We’re fighting an industry that believes good literature cannot have an ounce of magic in it, not a hint of genre. We’re fighting, at a very basic level, just to make something that lasts.
Our authors and artists are rebelling, too—against a big, hard world that tells them no one cares about stories and art. They resist parents who say they’ve got cotton between the ears, peers who wonder when they’re going to get real jobs, and agents who would rather they focus on creating for an industry instead of the industry of creating.
But, unfortunately, we don’t always rebel in helpful ways. We procrastinate, we conflagrate, we argue. We seek refuge in empty vices and our own indignation. These offer temporary comfort, but little in the way of solutions as to what triggered our revolt in the first place.
So, dear reader, what you hold in your hands is a different sort of rebellion. One that aims not to fight for the sake of fighting, but to try—and to try damn hard—to transcend our circumstances. This rebellion is not focused on the enemy, but rather looks upward, toward the goal.
This issue is about uprising.
Here you’ll find characters rewriting reality, unwinding convention, and preventing a giant from eating a monkey. Alasdair Gray traces the spiral of human history to the absurdity lying at its core. Isaac Marion leads us on an ascent that, as an end in itself, alters its own course. In our “Breaking Ground” feature, Aimee Molloy shows us a woman in revolt against her own motherhood. Poetry by Erika Luckert reminds us that merely making it through the day can be its own form of resistance. And, in an exclusive sneak peek for our “Pioneering Author” feature, humorist Christopher Moore shares a chapter from Midsummer, his novel-in-progress that sees the return of one of his most beloved characters, Pocket of Dog Snogging. Chuckle manically as Pocket, yet again, challenges everything—including his own survival instinct.
Combining fiction, nonfiction, poetry, art, and comics with a poignant feature from the Afghan Women’s Writing Project, F(r)iction #10 continues our rebellion against traditional publishing.
Like each of us, the characters in this collection have their own struggles to overcome—to escape from the shadows of parents, rivals, and in one lovely story, the shadow of an enormous celestial object. Also like us, each aspires toward something greater. As we read of their attempts to rise above, we witness uprising at its purest—all the good and the bad, the tragic successes and spectacular failures both. Let these stories and poems be a manual for your own uprising. Take them to heart, let them lift you up.
Cheers,
Dani Hedlund Editor-in-Chief
Three Poems
There’s a maiden who must escape and so transforms herself into a pond. She is doing this again and again, drinking her own water while you prop pillows round your head and a turnip princess sprouts from dampened soil. The children dream of growing roots and dicing themselves into soup, its broth already boiling. Just think of all the opened mouths, the bellies growing full with lore when frog legs leap into a young boy’s arms— he will bathe them first then kiss them all, while woodland ladies chop down trees and lay the kindling for a fire. Now the whole world has tucked itself into bed. There’s a girl who tells lies till her child-sized teeth blacken and fall from her jaw. She remembers a fairytale told and then told until it grows old as her.
The night you try to kill yourself I am eating cake with strawberry frosting and you are in a mountain-town motel room downing tylenol and vodka.
At least there is a view when you stumble back into consciousness on the balcony and look out—
you told me it felt like dying but I never asked if you meant the passing out or the waking up.
In France, I aspirate the h (hear asphyxiated breath), order a hamburger hold it foil-wrapped and hot.
Why am I always eating when you decide to die? I don’t swallow for days. At the wake,
your body’s swollen and your throat is wide. We all smell of formaldehyde and ethanol,
embalmed. I feel the stiffness set in. I move as little as I can but you move less.
I was too tight with fear and you were too tender with your almost-death and so we had to use our hands to pull some part of what we felt back to the surface of our skin and if this was love or lust then both are a bodily sadness, the terror of losing you again. There in the basement of your family home we shook with the need to conceive of some place where you could bury yourself and be alive. Beneath the covers we clung to the sheets and each other but mostly we clung to ourselves when you came crouched above me on your hands and knees in an arc across that terrified bed and we knew that this was the most alive you had been and would ever be again.